Failure

 Todays class did not go as great as I hoped, right from the start I wasn’t mentally prepared. I was starting with the wrong forms, forgot techniques, and completely got lost in my own thoughts. We worked on the bags with our kicks and I was getting pretty frustrated with myself. And so I just admitted how I felt to the instructors that I see myself as a failure right now in class and that I am just completely lost in my own head. I try to hold myself high, but man todays class just defeated me. I honestly felt like just leaving right after class and not even staying for open training, I was that upset with myself that I felt embarrassed. I said ti myself “I’m a candidate this year, how can I have all these issues in my techniques and still be considered a candidate?”. I think it’s becuse I won’t give up like I have other years.